This journey can sometimes feel just like the song says; a “lonely exile”...
Everyone has their favorite song this time of year. This advent song is mine. The anticipation of Jesus' arrival seems to reach into my soul and tug at my heart in a way that is indescribable.
Because of my failing hip, I am in excruciating pain and have been since early spring. I am thrown into a season of suffering. My nights can be very sleepless and filled with pain. During my days, pain follows me around. Haunting me.
Although I am surrounded by loved ones, this journey can sometimes feel just like the song says; a “lonely exile”...
But there is a beauty here – in suffering - that I want to share. A beauty that could only belong to the one whose birthday we are celebrating. The one who brought joy, love, hope, and peace.
But Let's Focus on those Quiet Moments
But let's focus on those quiet moments. We all have them. Mine usually occur after everyone is asleep or in the middle of the dark night. I enter my quiet moments with exhaustion, pain, and suffering. It is in those moments that I hand those things over to God.
And herein lies the beautiful part. The beauty is what the Lord shares with me in those quiet moments. He is always there, always ready to hold my hand, wipe away my tears of questioning. He is always there to take me to peace, love, and joy if I just allow Him.
Not only have I felt great love in those quiet moments, but I have learned the most incredible lessons. All through suffering.
These are the moments in which I've placed my heart at his feet. Not the heart that you see every day. No, I'm talking about the deep down, the recesses of my heart.
In these quiet moments, we chat about those recesses in my heart. He lights the way past the suffering and into peace and joy and forgiveness. It is because of those quiet moments that this trial of pain has brought me the most incredible learning.
What quiet moments can I turn into moments filled with Him?
As women, Christmas can be one of most exhilarating and the most exhausting times of year. We rush around the house making everything "perfect"– making sure that our friends and family all feel at home. As you find yourself rushing around or simply sitting down and enjoying family time this year, ask yourself: What is God doing in my heart this Christmas season? What quiet moments can I turn into moments filled with Him?
Through this season of my life, He is taking that suffering and turned it into learning.
The Psalms proclaim God's ability to reach into our hearts and refine them. In Psalm 139:23-24 David says, “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” (Also See Psalms 66:10 and 26:2). It is in that "searching" that God has shown me my heart. Through this season of my life, He is taking that suffering and turned it into learning. He is giving me purpose once again.
Where in those quiet moments can God meet you?
God sent his love to us. He came to this place as a baby all innocent and pure and stayed that way for his life. So that He could be tarnished for our sins. So that He would suffer for us.
What season of life are you in right now? As you rush around getting everything just right, where can you place some quiet moments? Where in those quiet moments can God meet you?
Let us rejoice in our quiet moments together.
Imagine if we all recognized that God is present in every moment. He has a desire to meet us in our quiet moments. Imagine how easy it would be to get through the hard times and celebrate the joyous times. How easy it would be to anticipate His arrival, if we took the time to spend those moments with him, to focus solely on him.
This Christmas season we celebrate that Jesus came to us. He brought a love that is indescribable. An amazing love that enables us to walk through any season in our lives.
This is a love that enables us to turn trial or joy into learning.
This Christmas, let us do as the song encourages. Let us rejoice in our quiet moments together. He brought his love, his love is always here for us, and his love will return again to us. Rejoice!!